I open the lab door, flick on the light switch, and watch a herd of cockroaches scuttle for cover. It’s seven in the evening, when most of the university’s workers have left for the night. Even so, after I lift each rat from its cage, I place it in an unmarked black box, its temporary home for the journey from the sub-basement to the surgery room upstairs. Should anyone see me wheeling the box down the hall, they won’t be able to guess what’s inside. In fact, most people don’t know that my lab exists.
All is quiet in the surgery room except for the rustle of the nine rats. My fingers are sweating. Suddenly, I’m tired. I just want to go home. Swearing to myself, I move aside a jar of sterilized scalpels and reach for a Metallica CD. Gradually, the music hardens my mind as I mix chemicals behind a plastic shield. I can’t allow myself to think.
The first black box has an ID tag that reads JSmPFC1. Two months ago I injected a neurotoxin into this rat’s medial prefrontal cortex. I’ve finished testing the animal for learning problems, and now I have to check that I damaged exactly the right part of its brain. This requires a very specific procedure. I mark an X beside the ID number and open the box. His whiskers twitch inquisitively. He’s accustomed to my smell, and not so likely to bite as he was when he first arrived here as a 200 gram youngin’ from the breeding colonies.








