
Update, 1/27/2026: When I wrote this post, January was lying low. It has now risen from the deep with monstrous noises. So, a cold snap, fair enough. And then my boiler (which I think of as a furnace, no clue how wrong I might be) started not heating very well then not at all so I called 4 technicians over 4 days during which the home temp was around 60. Luckily the last tech was a genius who replumbed the whole damn thing as far as I can tell and the heat came back on. In time for the all-time record-setting snow and sleet and ice storm with temps around 20. I’ve never seen snow removal done by picking it up by hand and flinging it on the pile. The piles take up maybe 3 or 4 parking places and are head-high. The kids burrow into them, their little feet sticking out. The snowdrops are 8 inches under. I think my car’s battery is dead but my nerves are too shattered for me to check. The national horror continues. Big guns out, indeed.
A friend calls it Goddamned January and she has good reasons — intensive caregiving and difficult health decisions — to hate it. My reasons for hating it are also personal — my son and husband both died in Januaries — but I have case against it that’s general and over the years I have backed the case with evidence.
In 2020, I was getting over a bad bad cold and being comforted by snowdrops. In retrospect, even if that bad cold was not the just-discovered covid — which wasn’t even being tested for — I had no idea, none whatsoever, neither did anyone else, that January was just the beginning and things were about to get unthinkably worse, in fact, to blow snowdrops right out of the water.
In 2023 and 2024, January was getting tired of covid and fixing its wicked eye on infrastructure, that is, water pipes and gas lines and electric lines were blowing up and leaking and fritzing out left, right, and center, Baltimore was covered with snow and frigidity, and local freezing semi-isolated Baltimoreans hunkered down for an urban apocalypse, we were used to it by now. The neighborhood kids put on turquoise snowpants and dug themselves into caves; they made it seem like an option.
Currently January of 2026 is lying low, though it has lain low before and might be ramping up. Locally, it’s disrupting work schedules with broken websites and giving neighbors some kind of non-lethal but lingering flu. Nationally, it’s horrific, I ashamed of my country, I can’t even imagine people say these things and act like this, I’m ashamed of the whole damn species. The national horrificity could easily get local, we’re not immune and snowdrops and turquoise snowpants aren’t going to work any more. It’s time for the big guns.
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